A Veteran’s darkest days 12-31-07

Written by Peter Macdonald 465 Packersfalls rd Lee NH 03824 603-659-6217

How does one describe the need to die because you no longer belong? How does one educate on the short bursts of memory that always comes back? How does one know if it was reality then or now? The freedom that we gave our lives for is our worst enemy because others are free to not care. How does one justify the high rate of suicide by returning Veterans?

Can the United States so disregard Veterans that no one cares. We don’t need you to waste money on newer VA hospitals in NH. Our elected officials just want to spend to make their public image stand out. We need to stop the people in charge from using Veterans medical conditions for political leverage. Take a disabled Veteran and limit his care so that he yells to the public. Inflame the news articles to sell more papers to give the public a cause for elected officials to shout about. The elected officials then can put pet projects that waste tax dollars on the coat tails of the public cause. Spend one dollar on Veteran’s care and one hundred million on waste. Veteran’s die every day while in country just believing it is their last second of life. Then these tired worn out Veterans come home to realize they no longer belong. Veteran’s only make up 11% of the U.S. population. Suicide is only a vehicle that Veteran’s use as a last effort to protect the public from where we have been.

Governor Lynch of NH promised ethics to get elected. He refuses to speak to this disabled Veteran. Veterans are a smoke screen for NH elected officials to manipulate the people. I have violated no laws. Elected officials, judges and the news have harmed my character in the public eye to stop this loud mouth from exposing them. I have been some place that eighty-nine percent of you will never have to. “Hopefully” I came back with three injuries, two from separate combat support missions. I do not want your pity or hand outs. I believe so much in the United States that with all the harm that has been inflicted on my family and friends I still volunteer every day to help others. I want to die and need to die but I have to continue to speak to make what so many Veterans have and will give their lives for not be in vain. I come so close ever day just to end the pain in my head and body, so those short burst of memory go away. The military trains us to Kill then dumps up back into a society that we no longer belong.

Peter Macdonald Sgt USMC Semper Fi